Trust

Ghosts come and go but remain the same until you confront them and set them free. Skeletons hang in the closet until you release them. Words aren't heard until you say them. Knowing that you need to do this is half of the battle. Following through is difficult but, necessary. Finding the courage to face yourself and all of the pain you have caused and endured, rather than run from it, is in itself its own battle. Willpower and vices are ever prevalent, waiting for you to be slowed down or stopped completely. Owning up to your shortcomings is the biggest lesson to live. When I think about what I want, truly, I see things differently. It's a goal to be achieved, not to be stifled by. I am being shown what I need to do and it isn't going to be easy. It's going to hurt like hell. I need to rip open a wound, clean it properly, and then sew it up first. I cannot go on with a bandaid covering it up. For what its worth, I wish things were different. But, I suppose that's why I need to do this alone. To make things different for me. Forever a tree to come home to, I'll fly on searching.