I was driving. It was dark. Very dark. There were long windy roads and obstacles were in my way. I had a place to be. I needed to get somewhere. The hospital. I was driving fast. My phone light turned on a few times and I tried to read the messages. They were from you, but I couldn't read them because of the obstacles in the way. I tried to open my phone to call you. The brightness setting was stuck and I couldn't make it brighter. I just thought of what the message said. I caught a glimpse of it. You needed help and I was who you reached out to.
I arrived to the hospital and you sat on a couch. I was in a chair. My aunt popped up out of nowhere. She was dressed in scrubs. She gave me a hug. Then she gave you a hug. She introduced you as my boyfriend and neither of us said anything.
Then I was in a dark room. There were Christmas lights on the walls around the ceiling and otherwise, no lights. I tried to leave the room, but I saw the faces. They were all familiar. They were all wearing the same sweatshirt, green with a letter, and a red Santa hat. I told them all I figured it out, I just needed to let go of him. Then your face was in my face, then everyone else, one by one. Cornered me. Then I was on the ground and everyone was so much taller standing up high above me while I was on the floor. They all started to laugh at me and it got louder. I felt as though my entire body was paralyzed. I managed to look you straight in the eye. I grabbed your ankle with my right hand. I laughed back. My mouth was crooked to the side, like I had a stroke and that's all I could move of my body. I took a breath to get the laugh out. I said, they're all gonna laugh at you!
My eyes were closed and I felt a weight on me. I opened them to find Santa. A fake Santa. Fake beard. He started to say, ho, ho, ho menacingly, taunting me. I said, you are fake. You look like Weird Al Fakovic! He looked surprised then transformed into a crab then a green crab, then the Grinch. From the corner of my mouth I breathed out, fuck you, Jim Carrey, you can't get me, I have LOVE in my heart! He made a surprised face and then disappeared. The room was quiet, silence. The lights were still on with nothing else. I closed my eyes and felt like Jesus himself was about to sit on my lap. The bottom of my ribcage began to burst with a yellow light, a warm sun exploding outward. I heard a noise. It chimed three times. It sounded like I got a new achievement. Then I was back in my bed. Facing the ceiling. I heard the fizzing noise that I sometimes hear in my spine, releasing something from within; long trapped deep inside.
I arrived to the hospital and you sat on a couch. I was in a chair. My aunt popped up out of nowhere. She was dressed in scrubs. She gave me a hug. Then she gave you a hug. She introduced you as my boyfriend and neither of us said anything.
Then I was in a dark room. There were Christmas lights on the walls around the ceiling and otherwise, no lights. I tried to leave the room, but I saw the faces. They were all familiar. They were all wearing the same sweatshirt, green with a letter, and a red Santa hat. I told them all I figured it out, I just needed to let go of him. Then your face was in my face, then everyone else, one by one. Cornered me. Then I was on the ground and everyone was so much taller standing up high above me while I was on the floor. They all started to laugh at me and it got louder. I felt as though my entire body was paralyzed. I managed to look you straight in the eye. I grabbed your ankle with my right hand. I laughed back. My mouth was crooked to the side, like I had a stroke and that's all I could move of my body. I took a breath to get the laugh out. I said, they're all gonna laugh at you!
My eyes were closed and I felt a weight on me. I opened them to find Santa. A fake Santa. Fake beard. He started to say, ho, ho, ho menacingly, taunting me. I said, you are fake. You look like Weird Al Fakovic! He looked surprised then transformed into a crab then a green crab, then the Grinch. From the corner of my mouth I breathed out, fuck you, Jim Carrey, you can't get me, I have LOVE in my heart! He made a surprised face and then disappeared. The room was quiet, silence. The lights were still on with nothing else. I closed my eyes and felt like Jesus himself was about to sit on my lap. The bottom of my ribcage began to burst with a yellow light, a warm sun exploding outward. I heard a noise. It chimed three times. It sounded like I got a new achievement. Then I was back in my bed. Facing the ceiling. I heard the fizzing noise that I sometimes hear in my spine, releasing something from within; long trapped deep inside.
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