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On a whim, I put in my birth information to get an "in depth" look at who I am (according to the stars and some interpretation calculator online). Let's see how true it is:

Personality:

B lives in the here-and-now, immediately obeying her impulses. She is guided by a fire burning within her. She rarely heeds the warnings of reflection and reason; instead, she listens to her instincts, as if her unconscious were perpetually emerging. This is the source of her spontaneity and passion. Because she herself is continually being born, she champions all phenomena symbolic of birth: she enjoys breaking ground, beginning, clearing.

Well. Okay. I do write a lot about the fire inside me. I do wish I listened to reason at times, but I don't usually haha! Interesting about new beginning and clearing and being born continually. I will need to reflect on this, but I believe that to be very eerily true.

Due to her energetic temperament, her determination immediately invents the action necessary to fulfill her desires. It goes without saying that her attitude engenders certain risks. Sometimes her impetuousness, or a lack of maturity or patience, or a keen appetite for experience leads b into a blind alley. But risk is a part of her life. Since her fervor is immune to calculation, second thoughts, and cunning, she has no fear.

Hm. I would say this is very true of relationships (love and friendships). I do tend to dive right in, despite what might happen to my heart in the process. I am otherwise not quite so fearless, but generally, sure. Yeah.

Due to the influence of Pisces Rising, b has a psychic's sensitive and emotive personality.

True. Although, I conflict with it often. 

At the time of b's birth, her Rising Sign was located in Pisces (the Fish), while the Sun was passing through the constellation of Aries (the Ram). A summary of the various clues mentioned above provide b's personality profile; the following key words distill the essence of her character and indicate certain contradictions which may be sources of tension:

Emotionalism - Individualism - Pliancy - Vitality and passion - Humbleness and reserve - Pugnacity - Idealism Impatience - Indolence - Impetuosity - Intuition - Enterprise - Premonition - Innovation.

I will admit I am a walking contradiction. It's very exhausting. I think I recently used the word "impetuous" to describe my responses as a child/a dream I had. I would say these all describe me perfectly. I am not necessarily proud of all the words, but there they are. That is me for sure.

Consciousness and The Ideal of Self:

B is searching for stability; she wants to find a firm, unchanging structure for her life. But her efforts to achieve this ideal are often vain, because unconsciously, she is also inhabited by the opposite desire. Every time she reaches what she believes to be a good balance, she realizes she wants something entirely different. She should become aware that the concepts of stability and balance are difficult to apply to life. By definition, life is movement, change, and perpetual instability.

*Blinks* Shit. That is very solid. I am always talking about finding a balance and hoping for stability and when I get it, I abandon it for another project. Interesting. Definitely will reflect on that. 

B has a nagging feeling of insecurity which affects her psychology and dampens her natural enthusiasm. Her need to take action and assert herself is sometimes disturbed by this gnawing fear.

See my last blog post: Shooting Holes In The Moon

Adaptation and Sensitivity:

Because she is fond of method and order, b usually prefers to do things according to a pre-established plan. Her behavior mirrors this tendency: she will adopt relatively strict models elaborated on the basis of logical or moral reasons. She does not readily express her personal feelings or emotions, and may sometimes strike others as a rigid or prudish person. However, her conscientiousness and application make her thrive in a work environment, and she tends to treat social engagements and activities as a form of duty. Her natural taste for clarity, detail, and technique would make her successful as a scientific researcher or high-tech designer.

Wow. Yeah. That is all very true. Hahahaha WOW. Yup. Also, I work in scientific research. 

Although her demeanor is cold and distant, b is extremely sensitive. In some cases, her rather austere and rigid behavior and her refusal to yield too readily to sentimentality discourage others from being too demonstrative of their tenderness and affection. She has spells of melancholy in which she does not feel worthy of being loved, and tends to forbid herself any emotional fulfillment whatsoever. An austere or somewhat traumatic childhood experience may be the source of this behavior. It is difficult for her inner self to be detached from this past life, and she sometimes has trouble reconciling the image she has of herself as an adult with the one she acquired back then. The idea she has of herself as an individual is related to the image her parents projected onto her as a child. Nevertheless, the past is history, and she is now an adult. It should be easy for her to rid herself of these phantoms if she learns to relax. She has the ability to overcome her mistakes, and great endurance and will power to achieve her goals. Nevertheless, she must not repress her sensitivity in order to succeed.

See: Echo

Also, every other blog post about how I do a very horrible job of letting my outer and my inner be at peace. No one knows what I'm thinking but they very rudely try. I have been struggling greatly with my inner child/child view of myself compared to myself as an adult. I am trying to rid myself of these phantoms, for sure. 

Due to her feelings of insecurity, b craves order in her life and prefers to do things according to a predetermined plan. Unfortunately, because her logic and vision tend to be somewhat short-sighted, it requires a great effort for her to adapt to a situation. She is rigid and prudish, does not make friends easily, and is sometimes wary of relations with the opposite sex. She is a gifted worrywart.

Uh... wow. Yes. True. Mind blown. I'm not sure about being a worrywart but internally, sure. 

Love and Sensuality:

B's personality is dominated by love and affectivity. She is subject to love at first sight, and her gallant heart sometimes leaps forth impulsively; her sensitivity is lively and powerful. Amorous rivalries and conquests may be a recurring theme throughout her life.

YUP. So weird how accurate this assessment has been so far. 

Mental and Intellect:

B has a rather irrational and somewhat disorderly mind, and a voracious intellect which is usually subject to the rule of her prolific imagination. Although she is likely to have flashes of intuition which may prove to be correct, her thought processes are sometimes messy and confused. Her mind, which is oriented in many different directions at the same time, is ruled by her emotions and feelings. In tune with psychic and parapsychic phenomena, her thinking requires only the adjunct of structure to rise from the level of a blurry, uncertain, undifferentiated mass to that of a really significant vision with a grip on the real world.

Well. Yes. That is all true. I am painfully aware of it all as well. Ouch. 

Neptune is the first dominant in b's astral chart.

Quick google search, Neptune is the ruler of Pisces, mentions rose colored glasses, fairy tales, daydreaming and the like. Yeah. Alright. True. 

Mercury is the second dominant in b's astral chart.

First thing I found in a search is something about Gemini and how it is ruled by a brother/sister type relationship or a twin thing, which is just annoyingly fueling my annoyance in being constantly the same and apart. It also rules Virgo. Obviously.

Mars is the third dominant in b's astral chart.

Ruler of Aries, interesting that it is the 3rd. I don't really entirely relate to the Aries type so this is sort of funny. I do always think Pisces explains me much better overall but there are some primal instincts in me that come out when I'm feeling extra. Strong sexual desire, anger, fire, etc. 

This assessment is very strange. But, it is true.

The Tenth House is an area of the sky which is especially important in b's theme, because it contains several planets, including the one which rules her Rising Sign.

From what I gather, basically I'm ambitious and grounded. Capricorn's house. This is public image, career, and legacy. I guess that makes sense. I am ambitious in those areas specifically. I wish to thrive in those areas the most. 

The First House is an area of the sky which is especially important in b's theme.

Apparently, this is the Aries house. The ego and sense of self. Makes sense since I have trouble with my self assurance. 

Active << Passive
B sometimes lacks energy. She is fairly apathetic and passive, preferring sluggishness to movement, and leniency to initiative. The greater the ratio, the more exaggerated her tendency to laziness will be.

Haha, wow! Called out! True.

Emotional >> Unemotional

Uhhh... Yup.

Extroverted >> Introverted

No, but this was more of a line that was SLIGHTLY leaning more to extrovert. However, I consider myself pretty introverted and shy. To a fault.

Primary >> Secondary

Ok, this I don't know enough about. I guess there's the "old ways" and the "new ways" to astrology? I guess they consider me an "old way" and also, that primary has to do with beginnings, which was mentioned earlier. I dunno if I have an opinion on the matter. It's all sort of nonsense. 

Narrow minded << Open minded

True.

Egocentric << Sociable

Ok.

Independent = Cooperative

Hahahaha Yes. This is true. 

Authoritative = Submissive

YUP *wink*

Self-confident << Insecure

Well, today, very true. 

Optimistic << Pessimistic

Hm. I consider myself optimistic generally, but I suppose I've been told I'm pessimistic more often than not. I should work on that more.

Abstract << Concrete

Yeah. Probably.

Methodical >> Spontaneous

All of these are on a scale and yes, this one was true. Just off to the left by one hair.

Rational = Intuitive

Fucking contradictions. 

Analytic >> Synthetic

Interestingly, this is why I think I'm good at science haha

Organized >> Chaotic

Yes. But, my mind is a bit of a mess at times.

Disciplined >> Capricious

HA! When I'm not being lazy. Yup.

Constant << Changeable

*Nods* Yes. 

My overall assessment: True. Weirdly true. It helps that I had my exact birth time from my birth certificate, haha!

This is all still bullshit though.