I was so tired. I tucked myself in. I was sleeping. I felt warmth wrap around me. Like a blanket. A heavy blanket. Person shaped... Arms were around me and I felt the hands clasp at my shoulder blades. Holding me in tight so I wouldn't go anywhere. Pinning me down. But. I liked it. I adored it. I cried out, feeling for the first time in years... warmth. The love. The feeling was deep down and soothing. He pushed back my hair and kissed me. I let him. I kissed back. It got intense. But, then I had the feeling that it was... wrong. Something was wrong... I felt... trapped... in between the love and warmth... I felt trapped. Suffocating. I let go of my hold and he began to put his hand further down. He was tugging at my pants and I said, no, not yet, this is too fast. He was annoyed. He tried kissing me again and in between his kisses I asked him, who are you?He was more annoyed. He tried again and I asked again, firmer, who are you? He wouldn't respond to that question, but I smacked his hand away from my pants. No. I said louder. He dropped all the love. All the feelings of safety were gone. I felt my gut lunge. I didn't realize it was a trick until now, I knew it now. YOU MUST or there will be hell to pay for us BOTH. Each word echoed in the space we were in... just shadows in a vast pool of nothingness. I stayed stunned. Watching him evaporate to nothing. A black cloud in the wind, scattered until nothing was left. My heart began to race. Faster and faster. Then I was opening my mouth and breathing hard. Panting. I opened my eyes. I was in my bed. In the same spot. Still tired. Still so tired. I clutched my heart. Beating fast. Hard. I was gasping for a breath. I wasn't sweating yet. I just woke myself up from a nightmare. It was gone. He was gone. I closed my eyes and wondered if I'll ever sleep again. I slept solid for a week straight. Unsure of the omen.
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